I didn't do anything yesterday, so I didn't die because of my insane productivity. However today I finally wrote this fucking abstract and sent the dissertation to my supervisor. And I fear what will happen now.
Frankly speaking, I'm not used to working with a nanny. I came up with the topic, talked with the guy a couple of times and just wrote the whole thing. End of story. I don't need reporting to him every chapter I write because I prefer to work on my own. I really don't get this supervisor thing. What is this guy for? To take my hand and lead me to beautiful, endless fields of knowledge? I don't think it works like that. And now I'm a bit concerned if he's going to be slightly mad at me or plain furious for disappearing in a cave for two months and returning with a finished paper. If he's furious I'll tell him that hero must go alone and he should be grateful I didn't bother him with the stupidest questions. I wrote my BSc thesis without any help (well, maybe a bit of it, but it was a lab project so you know, serious, explosive business), I can write an MSc one on my own. I'll get a shit end mark anyway, because Warwick continuously fucked me in the ass without any lubrication during the whole year giving me shit marks for hard work and awesome marks for stuff I wrote drunk as hell. As my dear, probably already dead because of the dissertation friend Moe said "Write this shit, be done with this MSc bullshit, get a job and start a new life". Good plan. Hopefully I'll get a job after this disaster that is called studying at Warwick.
Don't get me wrong, I loved the place and the course. I just still can't understand how my drunken presentation I did a day before the deadline was better than this piece of art I worked on for two weeks with no sleep.
God, if he hates this dissertation and me for not writing to him I'm going to kill myself. 10 more days to the deadline and I need to print and post it to the UK, because Warwick is a dick and wants two hard copies in the digitized world. Why would you need a hard copy from INTERNATIONAL students, you heartless bastard?
With the end of the studying era, once again Fox sees nothing. And while staring at the endless, black void she once again rethinks her life and considers if becoming a penguin scientist on the remote Arctic wasn't a better life decision.
Well, I suppose supervisors have to tell students what to do with their inappreciable knowledge and they aren't elated with their task too. I'm not saying that every student knows nothing about the subject and need this kind of help but everywhere we can observe individuals like this.
OdpowiedzUsuńOf course, I fully agree. I just don't think my dissertation with tons of theory and my own designs needs a lot of supervision. My BSc thesis needed more feedback because I had to know if my lab results made any sense. In this case everything is theoretical, so not much supervision is needed :)
UsuńI'm still not sure if my paper is good enough. But I also think it's too late to make major changes :P